February 2009
i told you i'm not bulletproof, now you know.
i just got finished crying from watching The Boy In The Striped Pyjamas. if you want to watch a movie on the Holocaust that will make your heart ache, watch it. but if you don’t like crying, don’t watch it. i got 10g gauges for my ears today. they hurt. im tired.
January 2009
idiot
travis haha sure: What's the state under California
adore not war: there
adore not war: is
adore not war: no
adore not war: state under california
adore not war: mexico......
travis haha sure: There isn't?
travis haha sure: No in the US
travis haha sure: Not hawaii
adore not war: .............................................
adore not war: HAWAII IS AN ISLAND
travis haha sure: It is also a state
travis haha sure: Are you sure there's no state under ca
adore not war: ............. yeah i know hawaii is a state and it wouldn't be under california considering its an island
adore not war: mexico is under california
adore not war: california used to be a part of mexico
travis haha sure: NO
travis haha sure: IN THE US
adore not war: there are states to the east of california
adore not war: but not under it
adore not war: I JUST SAID THERE ISNT
travis haha sure: Omg
travis haha sure: Southwest
travis haha sure: I mean east
travis haha sure: Southeast
travis haha sure: Arizona?
adore not war: sure.
adore not war: thats just to the east of california
adore not war: california is a long state
travis haha sure: Its under
adore not war: it takes up pm the whole south west coast
travis haha sure: Nvm
adore not war: no its not
adore not war: i live here
“i am running out of words to say to you, wondering why i’m wasting my...”
– nevershoutnever!
“and the wind in our hair its the best of our lives, hands down.”
– go radio
you could write a book on how to ruin someone's...
i could listen to Taylor Swift forever. so today i got my fixed schedule. i thought they would atleast call me in the figure this out. i’m tired of going to the counselor to talk and embarrassing myself. nothing gets resolved. i wish this was easier. to be honest, i’m scared. i realized i might not have enough credits to graduate. well, i do but now i have to pass absolutely all of my...
i'm shaking fast in my own two shoes.
theres always going to things i want to do and places i want to go. but im not going to complain about it. i decided to go down to the main offices today to get my schedule changed? holy balls there was a shitload of people. i had to submit a request and wait to speak with my vice principal. i guess my school is just one big fuck up. can’t wait to get out, but then i really don’t want...
first Harrison Wargo.
now Joe Lussa. Brighten going on hiatus? someone please tell me what’s going on?
“A tumblr who unfollows you over one unfortunate post, is like a friend who will...”
– random tumblr
do you live the days you go through?
why does walking to school bother me so much? its embarrassing. i have to wake up earlier. i have to worry about leaving at the right time. i have to worry about not being late. its all really bullshit. why can’t i just drive? i don’t care if its just down the street. its that much more fucking stress put on my shoulders. especially when its cold as fuck outside. i never get a notice...
will you be my valentine, if i'm a world away?
valentine’s day is coming up. last year i couldn’t wait for it, tbh. i had my “valentine” (mason musso, long story) and an amazing show the day before it. february 13th was my real valentine’s day. it was exciting and fun. one of the best days of my life. i think i had more than one valentine in mind, though. i even proposed to someone, ha ha ha. omg pathetic me. that...
“you make my bed, i’ll make your day.”
– powerspace
and i know forevers a while, but with the way you...
happy chinese new years! i got two red envelopes, from my parents of course. bummer, its not as much as i used to get when i was a child. i wish i had photoshop so bad! why did i lend my disk to someone so careless? i thought she would really give it back. i guess that’s MY fault for lending her the disk and having to get my computer reformatted. i wanted to make a banner for my tumblr. you...
words so clear, my failure dear. lies tucked away...
i hate when people copy me! you could atleast not use the exact same words as i use. don’t make it OBVIOUS. don’t use my own sayings when you’re talking to me. make sure im not going to see it or something! i mean, its great. im an influence. you like to steal my words, and use them as your own. but you end up abusing them. its gross. im really tired. i couldn’t sleep last...
would you believe me if i said i didn't need you?
it definitely takes two to tango. im not afraid to say things and i don’t hide like hiding things. why do you think i have this blog? people lurk, relentlessly. hopefully, if they read what i say they understand and dont twist everything. unless theyre just stupid and straight up dont get it, id rather them not read it. people definitely underestimate me. theres only two people i can think...
“don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are...”
– Baz Luhrmann
“when i’m gone you’ll be going nowhere fast. so who’s selfish...”
– the academy is…
its not always easy and sometimes life can be...
House is so intense! it makes me hesitent. i am so bummed that The Summer Set had to drop off, yet another tour to record their full length. i have no doubt it will be amazing but i honestly would rather see them!! i hope we get to go to LA to see them? especially with Hello Hollywood. i’ve grown a love for them. other than that, i start school late today. but it felt like nothing? i was...
“do you know, ive never been so wrong to think you’d just come running back...”
– ace enders
“now if its worth your time, i’ve got 10 digits id like you to find but no...”
– the summer set
did it hurt when you fell from he-e-ea-ven?
i think i will stop stressing once i drop pre-calculus. im excited for this huge weight to drop off my shoulders. we the kings this friday? the summer set in LA next saturday, maybe? planning it. i need to do this 79+ review sheet for pre-calculus by tomorrow. why do i procrastinate?
i'm so
adore not war: im so asian i bleed rice
amanda dangerous: that made me laugh really hard
adore not war: im so black i bleed kool-aid
amanda dangerous: i'm so white i bleed blood
adore not war: :O
adore not war: im so indian i bleed curry
adore not war: im so alex gaskarth i bleed alcohol
amanda dangerous: im so hispanic i bleed gardening tools
adore not war: LMAO
adore not war: I CHOKED
adore not war: ON MY DRINK
amanda dangerous: LOL
adore not war: IM
adore not war: IM DYING
adore not war: OMG
adore not war: omg
adore not war: wow
amanda dangerous: we're so racist
amanda dangerous: i'm so barack obama i bleed hope
adore not war: im so taylor i bleed weed
amanda dangerous: im so jason i bleed fail
adore not war: im so jeff guerity (i cant spell) i bleed cheezits
adore not war: IM SO DREA I BLEEEED ARMS
amanda dangerous: im so mia i bleed kyle burns / micheal phelps / sidney crosby
adore not war: im so brad scott i bleed bad haircuts
amanda dangerous: um
amanda dangerous: im so jonathan i bleed ducks
amanda dangerous: i'm so leona lewis i bleed love
adore not war: im so jmont i bleed sexy
amanda dangerous: im so j gomez i bleed cuteness
adore not war: im so poolie i bleed moobs
adore not war: im so cash colligan i bleed bad tattoos
amanda dangerous: im so deleon i bleed 16 year old disney channel stars
adore not war: im so jac vanek i bleed rubber bracelets
“waiting for your life to end to begin again? no you can’t back up and try again.”
– my favorite highway
this table is taking a turn for the worst
so, what? i would just like to say that today i spent most of it on stickam with friends and making new ones. another thing, lets not underestimate the people around us. not everyone is willing to sink as low as you should. that’s it.
lately drea and i have been having these weird moments when we think the same things at the same time. then we both say it. its weird and i get dumbfounded...
“a clean break is easier. you can reset it and it heals. and you can move on, but...”
– little black book
wow.
adore not war: LOL my fav is
drreaxbaby: 34. You can have pancakes any damn time of the day you want.
adore not war: you can have pancakes any damn time
drreaxbaby: tru that
adore not war: ............
drreaxbaby: LOL
adore not war: ............
adore not war: .
drreaxbaby: AHAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAAA
adore not war: will you gtfo out of my head
adore not war: ...........
adore not war: im like tearing rn
drreaxbaby: LMAOOOOO
drreaxbaby: ME TOO
drreaxbaby: CRYING
adore not war: wow
drreaxbaby: why do we do that
“was i out of line? did i say something way too honest?”
– taylor swift
i met great friends, i've seen great times.
so tonight was taylor’s eighteenth birthday dinner. im glad i could go, although it was awkward not really knowing anyone. i was hesitant to going because i have been having anxiety problems lately. :/ when i got there i was welcomed with a huge “SAMANTHA DO!” i was lost. i didnt even know where i was going. then we ate good food. i didnt eat that much because i was tired. we...
i've got troubled thoughts and a self esteem to...
Social Anxiety Disorder, also known as social anxiety is a diagnosis within psychiatry and other mental health professions referring to excessive social anxiety (anxiety in social situations) causing abnormally considerable distress and impaired ability to function in at least some areas of daily life. The diagnosis can be of a specific disorder (when only some particular situations are feared) or...
oh, my friends all lie and say
they only want the best wishes for me. so today .. i walked to school. i got there just when the bell rang! i think i have anxiety problem. when it comes to presentations/talking in front of the class, i get really apprehensive and i feel like barfing/dying/fainting/running out of the room. i dont get it. when i was young in school, i didn’t give a fuck what people thought and i was fine, in...
Posting from my phone? Bahaha.Just testing.
wish hard enough, i can turn it to what i like.
i will love Fall Out Boy forever. Fall Out Boy changed my life.
“dear gravity, you hold me down in this starless city.”
– fall out boy/lil wayne
if your life is so damn comfortable then why do...
if theres nothing left to lose, then theres everything to gain. i can’t believe i forgot my government project paper in my locker… that could be the worst thing i’ve ever done. i need to do this project too. so i am text people and nobody can help me. i myspace bulletin, and nobody can help me? or maybe they are too shy. or maybe they just want to watch me suffer. i guess...
i can't sleep, i gave the world away for you
i haven’t written an actual blog the way i used to in a long time. so over the past week. i’ve been stressing like mad crazy. i’ve been the sickest i have probably ever been. i can’t get over how bad i am doing in pre-calculus. i’m stressing over college and financial aid. i have quite a few projects to do. my parents scold me for the silliest things. my friends are...
“is it safe to say in the morning you’ll come back and things will be the...”
– valencia
“im sure as hell the happiest ive ever been.”
– all time low
“Loving you is like trying to touch a star. You know you’ll never reach it,...”
– family matters
are you real to me?
im still sick. i stayed home from school today. now im sucking down grape juice and cranberry juice :) mmm.
“what if counting on my failure made me live?”
– meg & dia
my arms get cold in february air.
i hate being sick. i actually know how i got sick this time. walking home in this weather. its pathetic.
“this life is so crazy so could you please remind me, its simple, its easy.”
– my favorite highway
friday, i see your face.
school sucks, as typical. the weather is weaksauce. my throat is jacked. i would like to see jason and drea on friday. 2009, you really need to beat 2008 because so far you’re slacking.
“some may say i need to be afraid of losing everything. i won’t change...”
– demi lovato
“you hardly ever listen.”
– this century
“living my life, the life. i do how i want to do. living my life, my life. i will...”
– T.I.
when you're only 18, & you got nothing to lose.
and your living a dream, with the sand in your shoes. im upset. im turning 18 this year. im off to college. ive had my driver’s license for over 15 months. wheres my freedom? i cant even drive to school. i cant even drive to the store. wanna get somewhere? ask your friends. ask your brother. im almost 18. where the fuck is the fun? college? no. you’re staying near home. why? you dont...